Closer and closer

I informed my supervisor orally last Monday and submitted the letter of resignation today. Then I announced it at today's section staff meeting, although most of them had already knew.

Only two weeks left till my departure from my position, till the ending of my almost 10 years employment with PHI/CCR, and till the start of my new life as a stay-at-home-mom, a homemaker, and a parent educator. I will surely miss my colleagues and everything about the job that has become so familiar that it has become part of me.

It's like getting closer and closer to the river. Now standing at the river bank, I can smell the smell of the river, I can hear the sound of the raging waters, I can feel the ground vibrating, but I'm yet to step my foot into the river. Will I be swept away by the river? Will the river be parted for me?

I feel anxious from time to time. Am I really doing this? All those "what if"s are creeping up on me. I need to hear again what Joshua was told again and again before he crossed THE RIVER:

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discourage, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. --Joshua 1:9